Back in 2012, I opened my website, which, luckily, was available, and had to teach myself how to put it all together. Gotta be honest, though, creating a website is a bitch.
There were things I found easy to do, others not so much, and I always could count with the help of friends who do this sorta thing for a living and are therefore much intelligent than I could ever dream of being.
At the same time, I created an Amazon account where I could sell the stories I’ve written. It all seemed to be going well, and as time went by, I learned about self-promotion, what to do, what not to do, etc., etc.,
Such was the excitement I felt as I dove in the waters of this new sea of possibilities that I overlooked an important thing about myself: I was not writing.
Kind of ironic, isn’t it? Since I am a writer.
And then there is the job, I had to keep working for a living while feeding up this dream of becoming a full-time writer, sell my stories and maybe, just maybe, had one of them become a movie or something.
My dream was so far off; I wasn’t paying attention to the present moment.
Seven years ago I had a huge, fucking ego and thought I could do it all. Now I know I can’t.
I can’t hold a regular job, learn the how-to’s of the self-publishing world and write at the same time.
I just can’t. It is mentally exhausting.
I am losing my mind.
Having no representation is hard, and it makes me want to pull the plug sometimes. But I can’t do that. I am better than that. I guess I just have to put my feet on the ground and focus on one thing at a time.
I’ve always sucked at multitasking.
So, I have made a decision: I deleted the website and will only use Facebook as a platform to show my work and then will link it to Amazon, where the stories are published.
I want to do it this way for two reasons:
1- I don’t have to deal with the extra work that it takes to manage and keep a website, the hosting, the domains, the feed, and any other website lingo I have come to loathe by now.
I just want to write.
2- All my friends are here, and If anyone likes to know what I am up to, I will show it every now and then. That way I’d feel a lot closer to all of you, and at the same time, I would conserve some of my sanity and use it for good.
Well, now that I don’t have to think about how to run a website, I am gonna go ahead and write.
Until next time.
Gabriel Lucatero. May 3rd, 2019