I Have Given Up… Well, Kind Of

Back in 2012, I opened my website, which, luckily, was available, and had to teach myself how to put it all together. Gotta be honest, though, creating a website is a bitch.

There were things I found easy to do, others not so much, and I always could count with the help of friends who do this sorta thing for a living and are therefore much intelligent than I could ever dream of being.

At the same time, I created an Amazon account where I could sell the stories I’ve written. It all seemed to be going well, and as time went by, I learned about self-promotion, what to do, what not to do, etc., etc.,

Such was the excitement I felt as I dove in the waters of this new sea of possibilities that I overlooked an important thing about myself: I was not writing.

Kind of ironic, isn’t it? Since I am a writer.

And then there is the job, I had to keep working for a living while feeding up this dream of becoming a full-time writer, sell my stories and maybe, just maybe, had one of them become a movie or something.

My dream was so far off; I wasn’t paying attention to the present moment.

Seven years ago I had a huge, fucking ego and thought I could do it all. Now I know I can’t.

I can’t hold a regular job, learn the how-to’s of the self-publishing world and write at the same time.

I just can’t. It is mentally exhausting.

I am losing my mind.

Having no representation is hard, and it makes me want to pull the plug sometimes. But I can’t do that. I am better than that. I guess I just have to put my feet on the ground and focus on one thing at a time.

I’ve always sucked at multitasking.

So, I have made a decision: I deleted the website and will only use Facebook as a platform to show my work and then will link it to Amazon, where the stories are published.

I want to do it this way for two reasons:

1- I don’t have to deal with the extra work that it takes to manage and keep a website, the hosting, the domains, the feed, and any other website lingo I have come to loathe by now.

I just want to write.

2- All my friends are here, and If anyone likes to know what I am up to, I will show it every now and then. That way I’d feel a lot closer to all of you, and at the same time, I would conserve some of my sanity and use it for good.

Well, now that I don’t have to think about how to run a website, I am gonna go ahead and write.

Until next time.

 

Gabriel Lucatero. May 3rd, 2019

GET SOCIAL WITH US