I recently posted a video titled I’m Not Breaking Up With You, mainly explaining that I will not be posting videos on YouTube as often as I was doing it initially. A torrent of drastic changes prompted this decision that has made me reevaluate my life in so many ways. I usually like to think of myself as someone who accepts change. But who the fuck am I kidding? Nobody likes change.
Even though I’m not too fond of it, it is crucial. At first, it feels like a punch in the gut, making you fall to your knees while trying to catch your breath. You want to punch back, but the blow weakens you so much you can barely open your eyes. You can barely see who is there. And if you’re able to see, it hurts so much to acknowledge that the ones who hurt you are those who claimed to be on your side at first.
The good thing about this pain, though, is that it teaches you how not to fall for it ever again. But if you do, well, that only means you’re an idiot who can’t learn from your own mistakes.
So, in a nutshell, here is what I am going to do:
I’m going to focus on the book I’ve been working on for the last three months. I should have finished that book by now, but, well, shit happens, and I’m still at it. That means I am not going to be posting on social media every day. I won’t be able to see you all. But I will always be thinking of you.
I will try to be back every week and post a video or two, but I can’t make any promises. I know this is not a good business plan, but I never claimed to be a businessman. I am just a writer, the kind of person who needs all the solitude in the world to create. To survive.
Hang in there. I’m hopeful that things are going to get better and I can have a more flexible schedule one day. For now, I have to work with what I have. It’s better to do that rather than giving up. And I don’t give up. I am not a fucking quitter.
I wish you all the best.
Until next time.
And don’t forget: Keep writing your story.